The Six of Us

Several years ago.  About 2 years and eight months ago I texted my best friend to tell her that I was pregnant.  I remember I was sitting in a training.  It was the fourth time I had told her I was pregnant since Victoria was born.  I was scared and I knew she was scared for me.  I gave her my due date as around mid August and she said well that would be cool if he came on my birthday.  I laughed and said not likely because my other two kids were born ten days and a week early.  I went to the doctor and was given the due date of August 17th.  August 17th came and went.  I was huge it was triple digits.  I went to a good friends good bye party on my due date and did dance dance in the hopes of making this little guy show up.  He didn't.  August 20th came and I had a doctor's appointment.  My doctor asked if I wanted to induce.  I didn't really but this same friend had tickets to fly in.  I wanted her to me the lit...

So many things that are disappointing and then so many good things.  Kids started dance and soccer tonight.  I think it will be a great season for both of them.  Jake has two kids we go to church with on his team.  The first time ever he has known boys on his team.  I am always so grateful for the coaches who take time away from their families to spent time with my son.  One thing I struggle with more then anything is being lied to.  I am pretty sure why it bothers me perhaps more then the average person but it hurts,  there is one person in my life who lies all the time about the dumbest stuff.  It has been an ongoing issue.   Then Jake and Victoria both found out that their best friends will not be in their class this year.  Jake has three good friends and they are all is different classes.  Which is good in the sense that all of them won't be together bad in the way that Jake is disappointed.  Victoria's situat...

It has been a long week.  Super long.  On Monday and Tuesday the kids and I went to Utah.  Saw the new Ogden temple which was amazing and disappointing all at the same time, swam in the hotel pool and slept in the most comfy bed other.  Then on Tuesday we went to temple square.  Kids had a great time learning about the temple they loved the model and statue of Christ.  But....Tuesday morning around 1:00 am Andrew woke up running a fever and has been miserable since.  He is way better then he was Tuesday and Wednesday but is still a super grouch which is unlike Andrew. But he is near the end of the sickness.Whatever it was.  Last night he slept 14 hours. The end of summer is near.  One more week.  One week from tomorrow night we will be putting the final touches on back to school stuff.  I am sad.  Sad we didn't do enough this summer, sad that they are going back, sad because I am going to miss them.  Sad that no matter h...

I have had a "crisis of faith" for years now.  Probably close to five.  I struggle with going to church I struggle with some of the lessons being taught.  Modesty being one of them. The kicker came when my sister in law said that she thought everybody who thought that women should get the priesthood were "idiots" and "should find a new church".  It hurt.  I do think that one day women will get the priesthood.  I don't think it will be all women but I believe there will be a select few who will get it.  That being said I don't think I need the priesthood to bless my children.  I can bless them and call on healing powers with out the priesthood present.  I have done so.  Not the typical laying on of hands but a blessing none the less.  It hurts me that so many women are so rude to people who think different then they do.  It hurts that I have to stifle my opinion in order to not upset family or to become a ward project.  Nob...

I have decided to join MOPS.  It is a huge step for me and several things led me to the decision. But I figured out we will never be invited to the ward's play dates I decided to join a community one.  I am little anxious to see how it will go.   I booked our hotel for Utah our final trip of the summer I was trying to figure it out so we could go while Lee was on his bike trip but instead we will just go now and swim with the alligators when he is gone.  I was having some anxiety about the trip.  But I found a hotel that has suites so I can put Andrew to bed in the bedroom and shut the door and then spend time with the older kids. In theory. Lee has been working super late anyway.  On Tuesday he never even saw the kids.  Well he saw Jake because he gets up so early and Luke because Luke thinks midnight is a good bed time.  Our weeks leading up to back to school are going to be crazy insane.   But I think it will be a good way ...