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Outside looking in

Lee took the older kids to church and Andrew is napping.  I have been meaning to post for a while but just haven't. Lately I have felt like an outsider.  Not sure if it is me or the situation.  Seems like everything I do somebody thinks is a bad idea.  I have decided to stay silent on some family situations and maybe that is why I feel like I do.  Some of it was just bad timing and some of it I just feel really judged but that could be in part because I am super sensitive.  It is sad to me because I saw things turning out differently. The pain is still there and last night was one of the worst nights.  I can't sleep.  Just another month.  Lee is doing everything he can to help and I know he will be a big help once the baby arrives.  But there are just something he can't fix.

Rambling a for the new year

2013 The bad: RSV Sucide Cancer Unreliable family members Dad dying Getting rid of cat Unexpected pregnancy Siatica Huge medical bills 2013 The Good New job Silver wood Family reunion in Kamiah The Beach Dance Recital GT Baseball Grandparents who attend kid sports New Floors Supportive BFF Living close to siblings Bike trip Looking forward to in 2014 New baby New job Raises Dance recital Baseball Peace Happiness Less debt