It took nearly a year to get to where I am. I still struggle with certain things and I have only opened up to one person in real life and several on the internet. It is a very lonley path to go down especially with nobody to go down the road with you. I don't think there is anything wrong with questions if those questions have the intent of learning more. Which is all I was trying to do. I am still questioning still wandering but for now here we are. For now we are doing what we are doing although sometimes it seems like we are going through the motions. I am not bitter although I would have done things way differently. I wish I had somebody to open up to in real life. But there just isn't.