The Six of Us

We made it home at two in the morning this morning. I loved Seattle I so miss my sister in law and my BFF.  Jake is still not 100% but hopefully will be better after a good night sleep.  We has such a great time with friends and family.  Lee is applying for a job and I may get my wish to spend more time with my Seattle family and friends.  It is official.  Lee found out this morning that he will be graduating on May 15th.  I am so excited.  More motivation for me to graduate.  The plan is still for May 2011.  I was going to try and push for December but I don't think that will happen.  Actually I am pretty sure of it.  With more furloughs coming there will be more time to get the internship done.  Good and bad.  Bad because we need the money.  Good because I wasn't sure how I was going to work full time and do an internship 20 hours a week.  The department has been asked to cut 7% before the end of the fiscal y...

So at this moment in time I am sitting in my sister in law's apartment and I am loving it.  I spent the day shopping with my oldest and dearest friend.  We had dinner with Kimberly and Bryan at this Asian shopping center.  It was good not great but good.  Last night we stayed the night in Tri-Cities and we to dinner with some friends.  It was such a good time.  We laughed and laughed.  We were those loud people in the restaurant that you don't want to sit by.   Lee and Chris stayed up late playing games and Lee has been such trooper today even with the lack of sleep.  Tomorrow we head head home.  Not sure where we will stay tomorrow night. So on to the sick kid part.  Jake was complaining of a head ache when he was in my mom's car.  A headache only means one thing when it comes to Jake.  It means he is going to throw up and he did even before he made it to my parents house and before we made it out of Caldwell....

I sometimes wonder where to draw the line in this whole blogging thing.  I could make us look like the "perfect" family or I could deal with all of our disappointment and make everybody think that we quite possible have the worse life ever.  Or maybe there is a middle ground somewhere that I have yet to find in this blog.  Today was a rough day.  Don't get me wrong I am so excited that everybody around me is having babies.  But for some reason today I was caught up in the losses all over again.  I am wondering when it stops.  Maybe it never does.  Maybe it will be a life time of wondering what if I would have gone full term.  Several people have asked when (or if) we are going to have another baby.  I am not sure.  Sometimes that answer is yes and sometimes it is no.  But one thing is for certain it isn't right now.  Really I don't need to have a ton of kids to fill some void.  I love my two kids and if that is all ...