The Six of Us

We had such a great time in Silverwood and visiting with family for a day.  Apparently, I am not allowed to be upset that two different family members bailed on going with me and one bailed on child care on Friday.   It worked out and the kids had so much fun.  The hotel was so much fun.   Lee came back a day early which was nice and today we were able to go out while Lee's dad babysat.  We went to the Antique Roadshow and out to lunch.  Good times. My dad has had a really rough week and now we wait to see if this new treatment is working.  Cancer is so stressful.   My BFF got horrible news this week.  Awful awful news that will effect their lives.  It so heartbreaking to sit back and watch and know there is nothing I can do.  Also that same friend's 14 year old daughter is considering joining the LDS church.  So I wrote her an email about my feelings on church.  Not sure it will do her any good but I hope it ...

Today I woke up thinking today could be the day that changes our lives.  As if there hasn't been enough changes already.    Although then again it could just be another day.  Lee leaves Friday as do I.  Here is hoping that there is some nice weather up in Northern Idaho for a few days.  Anyway I have to run off to work. 

The news keeps coming some good and some bad and some we haven't had time to process with everything going on.  I took a last minute trip to Denver with a 14 year old mom and her baby.  I am amazed at this girl's strength as she takes such good care of her little baby.  The baby has been in the hospital for almost two months and will be for another one maybe two.  I have deciede that if my kids ever need major health care we won't stay in Boise.  I am thinking that we will probably go to Seattle due to the fact that we have free room and board and shoulder to cry on.  Although I have been impressed with the hospital here. At this point I don't know what the future holds.  And I am pretty certain that at this point ingnorance is bliss.  I can do diffcult things.  I can do things that I never thatough that I would be able to do.  I have done things I never thought possible.  Tomorrow is a new day full of uncertainity.  Si...

What I really want to write I don't feel I can.  And there is nothing else I want to write.  I am disappointed but it may work out in the end.   My biggest frustration is that people waited until the last minute and then said it was out of their control.  Which isn't true. One of the feelings I struggle with most of all is the feeling of being left out.  There has been a few times over the last few weeks where I felt it.  In Kamiah, at work and at church.  But we are moving on to good friends the supportive ones who trust our judgement and are our friends in the worst of times.  I am so glad May is over.  Lee's friend died and so Lee flew back to Arizona to attend a funernal. The house still isn't back together.  The cancer treatment isn't working.   The good stuff about May:  my kids having fun playing with their cousins in Kamiah, visiting good friends over the long weekend,dress rehearsals  and the exc...