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Tears at Target

Last night I was sitting in Target parking lot  with the realization just how unhealthy a relationship had become. I had done a pretty good job in the past month not reaching out  and needing validation and not trying to help.    But then out of the blue this person text me.  They weren’t real and it all was superficial and really felt like an
 I know something you don’t” kind of deal.  . I text my best friend a book about how I needed counseling and how I needed to let go of this toxicity. She agreed  that counseling may help and that I did need to find a way to stop putting more effort into this then the other person.    Then she said by letting go of unhealthy relationships I could make room for new healthy ones.  I felt peace.  Today I was reading an article and a paragraph about always seeking out relationship and needing that validation was super unhealthy .  It went on to say that it was about me trying to prove I am worthy of this person.  God is trying to tell me something.

I spent hours chatting with this person as well looking up things I thought would help them.  They weren’t grateful.  Entitlement people I struggle with so much.

My friend also said that even though the relationship is unhealthy now there is no reason why it couldn’t change but it had to be up to the other person.  Letting good of people is hard for me because  I feel the need to help others and I feel the need to want to be liked.   But maybe it isn’t letting go just stepping away for a minute.

This person needs more time and effort then I can offer and it wouldn’t be appreciated.  I told them to reach out if they need our assistance but since I don’t know what is going on I am not sure I would be able to give the help they need.

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