The Six of Us

I finally got the last of the invites done.  Just one more week. I have the feeling I am being used.  Lee feels the same way so it isn't of those crazy me moments.  They more I think about it the more it is driving me insane.  I am not even sure that I can be nice about it.  I am sure that outsiders would say this is a irrational thought process.  I need to check in with my rational friends and family to gain a better perspective.  I was invited to a baptism on Saturday night for one of my favorite former foster girls.  I just adore these three girls but it is 45 minutes away and Lee is home only on the weekends it is such a hard call.  I think I will see how the day goes before making a decision.  My in-laws came by briefly tonight.  Always nice to see them even if it was for less then an hour.  We will see them in a week. There are several job postings for MSW.  I can't wait until September so I can start applying....

Mixed emotions day.  Struggling with the fact with what we wanted to happen at the end of the year won't happen.  Church made it worse and then made it better.  Our class was better then normal in part because a few of the kids were out of various reasons.  Then a person said something that was really what I needed to hear.  I am not ready to start the week.  There was a crisis at work on Thursday and I am going to have to face the consequences of it on Monday.  Good thing is a good deal of my co-workers are out and I can get a ton of work done including packing my office up. The first two chapters of my thesis are due on Friday.  I feel like Chapter One isn't even close to where it needs to be.  I have four nights and five days to work on it.  Then I will be all done with this semester.  I am ready to be done.  Victoria's birthday party is on Saturday and then I need to get my graduations announcements done and in the mail....

I did something super dumb today.  One of those things where you walk away thinking..Why did I do that?  Somebody (me) could have really gotten hurt.  It seemed like such a good idea at the time.  Maybe if we would have gotten a second opinion then things would have turned out much differently.  Maybe they would have turned out worse.  After that experience I am more certain then  ever I need to graduate and find a different job.  I learned today that if a 15 year old boy tries to kick out a back window of a car he can in fact jam the door into the driver's door so the driver's door no longer opens.  I am sure that Management is going to be super happy about that.  We did get to see Victoria dance class today.  We only get to go three times a year.  She is doing the cutest dance for the recital.  I am getting excited to see her on stage.  Her teacher is so amazing. Jake has a loose tooth and is getting molars....