The Six of Us

Out of the blue sometimes it hits me.  It was two years ago this month I miscarriage. The due date was in October.  I would have had a year and half year old running around here. Sometimes I think about it and think there is no way I could do that again.  18 month old children are so full of energy well mine were.  Which is a good thing.  It means they are healthy and active.  But it is hard because of the constant supervision.    Even though it has been two years I still struggle with certain family members because of that night.  I struggle with the lack of support.  I slid into a dark place and I felt as though I was alone.  People around me would say the dumbest things.  All I could think was really?  Somebody trying to help ( I think) said something that still to this day I found so clueless that it bothers me still.  There were people who I thought should have been there but never were.  But those same peop...

Okay things have been insane around here.  A week ago yesterday we went to meet with the back surgeon he suggested Lee needed surgery.  Lee;s  hernia had blown to pieces and he was quickly losing weakness in his leg..  It looked really cool on the MRI.  The doctor was AMAZING.  18 hours after we met with the surgeon Lee was on the operating table.  Lee was released from the hospital that day and has been walking around.  The walking is huge he literally wasn't able to do that for nearly three weeks.  Also the doctor feels confident that he was able to cure the ongoing back pain Lee has had for nearly a decade.  Lee was suppose to leave on his annual bike trip last week and that has been rescheduled for October.  We should be leaving a week from tomorrow for Bear Lake but that is out as well.  I am leaving tomorrow for four days for a work trip and I am leaving Lee and the kids in the very capable hands of my parents.  Thin...