The Six of Us

Mondays are a struggle for me.  Not because I hate my job but because I love my kids.  I loved spending time as a family this weekend and I know that next weekend while we will be together as a family there will be little family time.  The kids don't have school today and so it will be even harder to work.  I got up at 5:30 and went running.  It was fabulous.  It was refreshing and a great way to start the day.  Now I am off to shower and get a new driver's license,  Here is hoping I pass. 

I got an i-phone.  I love it.  When I explained to Lee why I felt that I needed one.  He said okay.  I don't feel obligated to go into the reasons but I feel as though it is something that will be a good thing.   I finally got some validation that I wasn't looking for on Thanksgiving.  It came in the strangest way. But it made me feel better that some people see a family member the same way I do.  That it doesn't matter how hard I try it will never make up for what has happened.  But not living in the same town helps with the situation. I am looking forward to a trip to Utah.  It will be a good time I am sure.  Lee is going down a day ahead which means the kids and I are driving alone.  I have checked the weather reports and it looks like clear roads there.  I am not so worried about on the way back because I will have Lee with me.   Still waiting for the go ahead to start my new job.  Maybe this week will ...

1) I am thankful for my many miscarriages because it makes me appreciate my children more. 2) I am thankful for my husband's unemployment because it means my children have a stay at home parent. 3) I am thankful for the fact that I am driving to Utah solo because it means my husband has family who loves him. 4) I am thankful for lots of laundry because it means that my kids have more then enough clothes. 5) I am thankful for my house payment because it means that my kids have a home to call their own. 6) I am thankful to get up at 5:30 in the morning because it means that I am healthy enough to work out.  7) I am thankful for life. 

Church was good today although I almost didn't go.  We have a new teacher in Sunday School.  She just got back from her mission.  It was a good lesson for sure.  The part I got out of it was enduring your trials and enduring them well. Then we heading into the third hour.  I wish people would not comment on things they know nothing about.  I wish people would not say that things are church doctrine when they are in fact not.  Somebody made a statement and they could not back it up.  Just focus on the lesson.  It was way emotional of a thing for me and I almost walked out.  Once you start just making random statements that are not doctrine the spirit leaves and people get way too riled up.

Today is one of those day where I stand amazed at where life has taken me.  As one child plays in the bath tub and another is down stairs doing math homework I am in awe. That somebody thought I could do this.  That my Father in Heaven sent me these two amazing spirits who are strong.  Who are stubborn to a fault.  Who make me a better person because I am their mother.  With the help of their father here on earth we are raising amazing children. I love my children. I no longer take them for granted because I know that they may be the only two children we have.  

Once again I find myself up hours before the rest of the family.  I got a work out in and folded some laundry.  I told the kids we would have breakfast burritos this morning.  Okay they will have the burritos I will have a smoothie.  Something happened this week that maybe we take notice of just how much healthier I am becoming. Once breakfast is over we will do some chores and head over to rake leaves at my parents house.  Then we told the kids we would take them to a movie.  

It is only when you are in the service of your fellowmen you are in the service of God.  Yup I know that it isn't word for word the scripture but I got the point.  We have started doing service once a month as a family.  This weekend was full of service.  We gave food to Scouting for Food and we went and did another project this weekend.  It was good.  In December we will pull a few names off the tree and buy presents for kids.  I over budget for Christmas every year for this very reason.  I remember my mom doing the 12 days of Christmas for a family she felt was in need.  Not necessarily financial in need but emotionally and spiritually in need.  I went over our fiances tonight.  We have some debt but we also have quite a bit in savings.  We are about half way to my (1st) savings goal.  Once the debt is gone I would like to have five times what my goal now is.