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What a week!

What an emotional draining week.  Took everything I had to keep my sanity. 

 Wednesday was court of honor for Jake he earned several merit badges.  Later that night we found out somebody from church died.  She was young and one of the nicest, kindest people I have had the privilege  of knowing. Lee will likely attend the service.  I am still undecided.

Thursday was the first cross county meet.  It wasn't great.  It wasn't even good.  Jake got passed up by a good friend but still maintained his spot. Victoria lost an whole minute and lost her standing as one of the top JV runners she cried and then I cried. But there is always next week and there is always another meet (at least for a few more years).

Then we went to meet the teacher at the middle school. My kids have the most amazing teachers.  Teachers who know their strengths and weaknesses.  Teachers who are passionate about what they are teaching and know the subject well.  


Friday just because the week was so emotional Lee and I went out to Sushi with his cousin and wife.  We laughed a lot and we ate a lot and it was fabulous. 

I worked Saturday Sunday and Monday.  We have our students starting here this week and I don't love having them here.  But I think it is such a great experience.

Then since it was the end of the month we had a budget meeting to reconcile August.  Always emotional! August was not a great month and due to Duke's major medical bills we ended up going backwards in regards to debt.

Luke starts preschool Wednesday.  Andrew is doing so well in first grade.  Older kids are excelling in school and for the most part in cross country and with music. 

I am not sure what I am going to do with all my time while Luke is in preschool but I have done some praying that I can be guided to know where I can best serve. 

In some ways I feel as though I can conquer everything and in some ways I feel as though I am so inadequate. 



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