Skip to main content

Halloween Weekend

This weekend was tough. Really tough.  Thursday I went to dad's grave.  I am not sure why I go especially with the little boys.  Luke was great Andrew wanted to run to the water fall on the other side of the "street" from the grave.  But I did get some pictures taken for BillionGraves so all was not lost.  Friday Jake had a project due so as much as I wanted to go home and have a good cry after the cemetery I picked Jake up from school and we went to the Hobby store to pick out some stuff for his project.  Then we worked on his project most of the rest of the day.  I did take Victoria shopping for purple hair dye and purple eye shadow.

Friday was Haloween. My cousin posted on Facebook that she was thinking of us.  My BFF sent me a text saying she hoped I could make some good memories.  We got together at my sisters for trick or treating.  Kids were great and had fun.  Victoria stayed the night with her cousin and I don't think they slept enough.

Saturday was scouting for food (round 1) Lee decided to do a huge reorganization project.  Both Lee and I got naps.  We do some decluttering had date night and got a new crock pot since mine was dropped on the floor and the insert shattered right as I was getting ready to get the babysitter.

Sunday was insane.  Lee had two meetings and taught Elder's Quorum.  Which means I had to take Luke to my primary class.  Kids were crazy and restless.  But the boys in my class LOVE Luke.  So they love it when he comes.  Jake made Apple Crisp with very minimal help.  Lee made dinner.   My ex Brother in Law posted on his Facebook about how much he missed Dad.  Sweet he did that.  He was always fond of my dad.  Also yesterday I came across Dad's funeral program.  I had forgotten we put the obituary on the back.  As I read through that I felt it all ended too quickly that somehow we all got shorted by not having dad here. 

While I write it all out the weekend had some highs but it just felt blah.   Time heals I am sure.  But doesn't change the fact I will miss him always.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Random Thoughts

I sometimes wonder where to draw the line in this whole blogging thing.  I could make us look like the "perfect" family or I could deal with all of our disappointment and make everybody think that we quite possible have the worse life ever.  Or maybe there is a middle ground somewhere that I have yet to find in this blog.  Today was a rough day.  Don't get me wrong I am so excited that everybody around me is having babies.  But for some reason today I was caught up in the losses all over again.  I am wondering when it stops.  Maybe it never does.  Maybe it will be a life time of wondering what if I would have gone full term.  Several people have asked when (or if) we are going to have another baby.  I am not sure.  Sometimes that answer is yes and sometimes it is no.  But one thing is for certain it isn't right now.  Really I don't need to have a ton of kids to fill some void.  I love my two kids and if that is all ...
2 comments
Read more

It has been a week

Here is how the week went Monday: OUr 25th anniversary. I was sick. We went and tried a Cuban restrant not as good as the food we had in Miami but it was good. We love trying new local places. It ended in tears. I won't go into all the details but I am relaizing that this is not the marriage I want. I am open about what I need and we will go from there. Luke started wrestling. Tuesday: End of the year banquent for Luke and Andrew. Luke recevied the "Most Improved" Awared. Here is the thing about that. His coach talked about how during summer practice he wouldn't even run 100 yeards. He would just stop. At some point after the first meet it clicked and he just ran and did what he needed to do. He went up adn accepted the award with such confidence. Wednesday: Both boys had activities. Andrew had stayed home from school due to not felling wel. My guess is he just needed a rest. He was feeling up for going and making pizzas at the Bishop's hous...
Post a Comment
Read more

Heavy Week

This week has been so heavy. I had a client pass away and I never got the closure I needed/wanted. Client was not my typical client. He was different and sassy and I looked forward to seeing him every week. Then we went to a presentation. When I tried to explain how dishonest the presenter was I felt ignored. We are pretty anti MLM anyway but not wanting to know is weird to me. There are big changes coming and I am not ready for all the changes. Might be good might be a diaster. Time will tell. Mom's surgery is scheduled in about four weeks. I feel as though she moved it for us. Which is for the best for everybody but still taking on guilt that is not mine to own. Listening to the news about the LDS church shooting/fire in Michigan has been so triggering. I hate that I feel all the all the feeings. How I can envision the people there and the screaming kids and .....on and on. I wonder what changes will come to the church now that prophet died. I hope ther...
Post a Comment
Read more