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Branching Out

I have decided to join MOPS.  It is a huge step for me and several things led me to the decision. But I figured out we will never be invited to the ward's play dates I decided to join a community one.  I am little anxious to see how it will go. 

 I booked our hotel for Utah our final trip of the summer I was trying to figure it out so we could go while Lee was on his bike trip but instead we will just go now and swim with the alligators when he is gone.  I was having some anxiety about the trip.  But I found a hotel that has suites so I can put Andrew to bed in the bedroom and shut the door and then spend time with the older kids. In theory.

Lee has been working super late anyway.  On Tuesday he never even saw the kids.  Well he saw Jake because he gets up so early and Luke because Luke thinks midnight is a good bed time. 

Our weeks leading up to back to school are going to be crazy insane.   But I think it will be a good way to end the summer.  Dance starts in ten days followed closely by soccer.  I am tired just thinking about it. 

I really don't want Lee to leave for ten days. But he is committed at this point.  I am stressed about how to handle dance and soccer and four kids.   And feeding the four kids and keeping a house clean.  My mom is leaving for five out of ten of the days.  The last five when I need her the most.  Uggg....Why can't my cousin plan her wedding around me?  ;)

Oh well we will make it.  I will insist this is the last bike trip ever, until February when they start planning again.  I think the reason I am not over thrilled is that they are going where there is no cell service.  They might was well be going to the moon.  Three weeks to go.  Stressing and worrying won't make it any better.  Lee promised me a kids free weekend in Phoenix when this is all over so I am going to go in October or November.  I just need the soccer game schedules before I decide what weekend.  Who am I kidding I will probably end up taking Luke. 


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