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Today....

I did something super dumb today.  One of those things where you walk away thinking..Why did I do that?  Somebody (me) could have really gotten hurt.  It seemed like such a good idea at the time.  Maybe if we would have gotten a second opinion then things would have turned out much differently.  Maybe they would have turned out worse.  After that experience I am more certain then  ever I need to graduate and find a different job.  I learned today that if a 15 year old boy tries to kick out a back window of a car he can in fact jam the door into the driver's door so the driver's door no longer opens.  I am sure that Management is going to be super happy about that. 

We did get to see Victoria dance class today.  We only get to go three times a year.  She is doing the cutest dance for the recital.  I am getting excited to see her on stage.  Her teacher is so amazing.

Jake has a loose tooth and is getting molars.  I am sad they are growing ups so fast although I enjoy it.  

I considered skipping class.  But I went and I am so glad I did.  So many interesting discussions and my professor said something that personally impacted me.  There are some issues going on that are not about me.

Also on the recommendation of a family member I bought a book.  Although some of the book is good some of it negatively impacted me and made me realize there are crazy people out there.   I had something happen that this book said could have been prevented.  All the medical people and most family and friends said it was just something that happens and there was nothing I could have done to prevent it.

My pay check was way more then I thought it was going to be. Which was super odd but super good. I really think that I am going to be able to stay on track with our getting out of debt. At least for now.  We are getting some money next week and I am unsure what to do with it.  So as exciting as it...savings.  There is still an ongoing debate about Cali or Hawaii or both.  

Even though it is only ten I am so ready for bed.  Good night Blog!!!

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