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Surgery...missing people....and real people

Mom had her surgery on October 30th/ It has been a rough recovery. Because there are only two of us daughter in the area we have been rotating spending the night at her house. Victoria has also been taking a turn. It feels as though I have been having to boucne back and forth and there just isn't enough of me to go around. Boys are styaing a lot of time alone becuase Lee has been working late and Victoria has been taying late at work. So on my nights if Lee works late then they are home. At this monet my mom has been able to stay alone for a while by herslef by still lots of checking in. My aunt has takedn some time off to help out. Here is the ting this was Val's thing. She took care of elderly people whe knew what to look for and my mom listend to her more then us maybe because she was the oldest. I am a little bitter that she left us. And sad and anger and every emotion possible. Tongiht was book club. There has been a person missing for the past year so I asked about her. Turns out that there was a whole story. Hurt feelings and such. I am so thankful for people who are real and vulerable and able to take resoposnibity for their own actions. Anyway I miss what ouru book club was but life is all about change. I love discussing books with other people and learning about their perspectives and reading things that I would not have read with out it being suggested. Wrestling is over. Luke never won one match but he LOVED it so much so we are doing club wrestling adn ne wants to do next year. So so burned out. Ready for bed. Learning what it really means to be part of the sandwhich generation at least for the time being. The End

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