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Revelations vs Own Thoughts???

Several weeks ago I felt strongly we should pray about several things.  One is selling our house the other was offering to help out with child care for a family member.  But things weren't what I originally thought they were in regards to child care.  I still feel strongly that we should be doing child care for this family member but, we are waiting for them to ask for help.  Because in the end I am not entitled to revelation for another person and second it would be sacrifice for us both financially and emotionally.  Much like sometimes we need to pray for things before they are given to us.  But the thought is still there and it is nagging me. 

I still feel strongly we should sell the house.  But we are waiting to pay off some debt.  I am decluttering and doing some deep cleaning and then when the time is right we will be where we need to be. At least that is the plan.

There is another thought that popped into my mind as we were on vacation this past week.  It is in regards to a calling for Lee.  They are adding three new wards to the stake on Sunday and I feel strongly about a calling they will extend him.  I prayed about it and I feel at peace about the whole thing. 

UPDATE:
Lee was not extended the calling I thought he would.  So was it my own thoughts?  Was it something that will happen at a later date?   I am honestly feeling discouraged.  I had so many things I thought were inspiration and now feeling that don't know how to read true inspiration.  Just overwhelmed with all of these thoughts I kept having that I really thought was from God.  Not sure how to take all these feelings and it is just a lot to take on.  Like everything is so in limbo.


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