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Sickness, company and chaos

Two weeks ago my in-laws came into town for Jake's birthday and ordination . It was a great weekend.  Although I worked half of it.  Sunday my mom came over for Jakes birthday celebration and we had good food and a good time.   But then Andrew got sick on Sunday.  And likely made my mother in law sick as well as my mom.  Sunday was rough.  Andrew was up all night with fever induced hallucinations.  At one point he shut himself in the bathroom and refused to come out until I assured him all the bad guys were gone.  My mother in law was up all night coughing and between the coughing and hallucinations it was one of the longest scariest nights of my life.  Andrew's fever wouldn't break.  In the morning he seemed better however, Monday night he had one more episode of the hallucinations. 

Monday my mother in law was super sick and slept most the day on our couch.  Despite my several offers to drive her to McCall she decline.  It all ended fine she made it there and has been sick for the last two weeks.   Monday Lee took the older kids and his dad for their annual ski trip. 



Tuesday Lee's sister text and asked if she could come visit and gave Lee the option of two different weekends to visit.  I had a preference he had a different one.  So she came the weekend Lee choose.  Spending the week before dealing with THREE boys who ended up with strep was difficult.  My mom was so sick that she couldn't be left alone so I had spend several days over there.   Add to that other issues going on that have yet to be resolved I was stressed to the max.  I lost it the final day she was there.  I felt ignored and disrespected and I told her.  Years of frustration came tumbling out.  I don't regret what I said I regret how I said it. 

Right in the middle of the chaos I found out my best friend likely has cancer.  Another family member is struggling with some things that didn't turn out they way they wanted.  My boss at work just gave her 30 day notice.  I am sad.  I love her.  But life is about change and trying something new and this will be good for her.

Last week things looked like they may be getting back to normal.  I started training for a half.  Kids were feeling better.  Issues still not resolved but we were able to go to a nice dinner due to a gift card Lee received for Christmas.  Kids all returned to school and I went over to my mom's every day.  I didn't get stuff done at home because of my mom. 

The next seven days will be chaos.  I work four days.  We have a kid turning five.  One Band concert.  Orchestra rehearsals and a concert.  Bond meeting. An obligatory work event.  Church activities.

I am thankful that we had two weeks of minimal extra activities.  So we could stay at home and take care of sick kids and I could help my mom.  It was as if the universe aligned.  House is a mess except the bathrooms (which I pay to have cleaned).  But we will make it through.

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