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Crashing and burning

Today was one of of those days which started out good but in the end I crashed and burned.  It just ended so badly.  Well I take that back the last hour was fine I watched a documentary with the older kids but the hours before weren’t great.

The kids weren’t listening at all.  Chores still weren’t done from yesterday there was Kool aid all over the upstairs bathroom, kids still need stuff for Trek, I took all the kids to the store for Lees Father’s Day present only to find out I forgot my debit card.  I found the mistake on the taxes and now we need to refile.  Lee worked late and then took an hour to get home.  Then he goes to help a friend install a dishwasher only to find out it was an hour worth of work laying floors before.  Lee wanted some answers about finances and I just don’t know what happened and at this point I don’t care.

I failed as a parent today.  It was a tough day.

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