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Win-Win

So for the past several months I have struggled to get our house under control.  In part because I started doing PRN on the Behavioral Health Unit and working more.  So I called my sister and offered to pay her to come over and help me declutter once a week.  It went so well that I have also asked her to come over and clean my bathrooms and kitchen every other week.  Win-Win.  She needs the money and I need somebody to come tell me to get rid of everything.  I am noticing a difference and it has only been two weeks.  (Three times). 

We started track a few weeks ago and are still in the middle of dance and scouting.  Jake went on an overnight campout last night and is leaving again tomorrow with my mom to go see the Falls and then Monday they are heading to the cabin. 

We will meet up on Tuesday and Jake will spend the rest of the week with us at the inlaws.  I think.  Weather isn't scheduled to be great.  So still debating.  Victoria is leaving Friday as soon as we get home to head to Lagoon with her cousin for the weekend. 

Lee and I went out today.  Went to the Garden show.  Wish we would have bought some flowers but we bought some other things that we wanted.  Then went to lunch at this hole in the wall sandwich place that was super yummy.  Then we went and talked to a cell phone carrier about switching plans.  In the end we walked out without switching.  Back to the beginning. 

I will be glad for April to be over because things will start to slow down.  Ballet will be done and Track will be done.  Looking forward to the summer. 

There has been some overwhelming stuff.  When I tried to talked to the person about it I felt very pushed aside as though my feelings don't matter. I understand they don't feel as though they did anything wrong but I just wanted my feelings acknowledged.  Which they didn't.  But they never have.  I am feeling more and more that I will never be good enough for certain people.  Not Mormon enough.  I am sad but I will move on. 


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