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Bucket List

When I was cleaning today I stumbled on to my dad's bucket list.  He had clearly written after he had gotten sick as his hand writing was super shaky.  What was on the bucket list?   Sell the car, finish the bathroom, complete the taxes  etc....

I wasn't surprised that is what Dad wrote.  He got through the first page of two pages in a small note book. The end was so hard on my Dad.  But he tried to make things as easy on my mom as possible. He got half there.  Well more then that.  Because he worked so hard and was so smart with money for so many years he was able to leave my mom financial comfortable. For that I am grateful.



I stsrted this post a few months ago when we were in the middle of packing and cleaning.  Today we closed the doors and said good bye to the house.  Now it belongs to somebody else.  Somebody who is very excited about it.  Their dream come true.  I am glad my mom is moving on to a perfect place for her.  But it is hard.  Hard my kids won't be going to Thanksgiving Dinner the same place I did for over 30 years.  No more of our Christmas will be spend there.   Home is where you making it in a way but to me that will always be my home.  To me it will be hallowed ground the place where my dad left us.  My sisters and I spent the past two days cleaning and last minute packing. 



Lee said good bye to the house earlier he had closure.  I thought I was okay but I am not.  But I am.  This needs to happen.  I am at peace but still an emotional wreak😥.  But this isn't about me it is about my mom moving on past my dad on to a future with her.


The new house is fabulous.  Perfect for my mom.  So no complaints there. 

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