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Which is it?

Last night as Lee was packing for his trip he made a comment about how every thing seemed to be going wrong. He made a comment about how maybe the adversary was trying to stop him from this trip and I said or maybe God is.  We will never know which is which.  :) 

Lee left 12 hours ago and I am already ready for him to come home.  Tonight has been tough but I think me working all day played into that.  Even thought I wished I could have gone to Pocatello today it worked out that I didn't,  We have been praying for Lee's aunts family that they may find some comfort in this that maybe with time they will be at peace.

We are counseled to mourn with those who mourn.  I think we don't always do a good job at that,  So while I may complain about the bike trip I won't complain about Lee leaving early to go to Pocatello, although other people did.  I grew up where funerals were important and although my dad despised them he would always encourage my mom to go even it meant him staying home with the four girls for several days,

I had somebody ask to share my testimony.  I was happy to do so and it made me realize once again what I really believe in and what I don't.   Sometimes I need that reality check I need somebody to ask me what do you believe in and how did you get there?  Everybody has a story and I believe that most people want to share that story with others, 

Last weekend at my leadership retreat we talked about celebrating.  Not just the big things or the normal things like babies and birthdays but the small things as well.  I do this but maybe not enough made me realize that we have lots to celebrate and I want to celebrate more.

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