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A year has come and gone

Mixed emotions today as I have come to terms we will never have another baby in the home.  That chapter is closing and we are moving on.

A year ago today we rushed to the hospital in a snow storm to have Luke.  I would love to say that he has been a blessing and we have loved him from the moment he was born.  We loved him but it was hard.  The first six months were some of the hardest of my life.  I will forever be grateful for my mother who was so helpful during those months when Lee was working long hours and Luke cried what seemed like every day. 

Every day Luke is showing more and more of his personality.  He is actually pretty calm easy going kid unless he is tired and then he is throwing himself on the floor out of control crazy.  He is just recently starting to show interest in books. 

Luke follows Andrew around wanting to do every thing Andrew does (except walk).  I am guessing he will be walking in a couple of weeks.  Just in time for Spring.  It is funny it has taken him this long to walk because he was my earliest crawler.

Luke loves being outside and I am so glad we have had some warmer weather to we have been able to spend the last few days outside.  I am looking forward to summer.

I love that Luke and Andrew are a pair.  A pair of trouble makers.  :)  I am so blessed I was able to spend Luke's first year home with him. 

Luke still doesn't like to be snuggled or held.  He never has and it has always been sad for me.

Lee and the older kids can make Luke laugh this belly laugh. 

He has said mama a few times but that is it. He is the quiet trouble maker getting into things and figuring things out with out letting anybody know until it is too late. 


Very mixed emotions as I put my baby to bed tonight and realized he is no longer my baby. 

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