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A year ago....

A year ago today after a long day at my parent's home I came home to tell the kids my Dad probably would die the next day.  Victoria said, "No he can't die on a holiday."  He didn't listen....But then again his legal death dad would end up being November 1st.   The night was one of the longest of my life.  With dad totally drugged up we slept on the floor in the family room while he was in the living room. It was draining day.  I spent most of the day sitting in the chair in the living room by my dad texting my best friend.  I wouldn't have survived with out her.   It was so hard and I just wanted it all to end but then I didn't want to lose dad. 

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