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Looking forward to sunny days

Super excited that school ends in a week.  I enjoyed my kids and I am looking forward to spending time with all of them. But next week is going to be super crazy.  Last day of school dance recital and two dress rehearsals.

That being said I am looking for a part time job.  I was going to wait until the fall but I have decided not to wait that long. But it has to be the perfect part time job and I am not sure I am going to find it.  Working several days a month seems to plenty for right now. But I think working two (maybe three) days a week would be ideal.

Mixed emotions about Lacrosse being over.  I loved how Jake ended up really loving the sport. But the three days a week of running around was getting old.

They laid the headstone I love how it turned out.  I love how my uncle was able to see it and how much he loved it.  I hate how it even exists.

I am so glad I was able to go help my friend pack although I really wonder how much help I was although her girls love the boys. Flying with the boys was hard but I survived.  Still having doubts about going to Seattle next month.  There are lots of reasons to go and lots to stay.  We will just have to see how things play out. 

Anyway I have stalled on my decluttering project but I am hoping with the kids home we will be able to make progress over the summer.  But we will be gone a good chunk of the summer. 

There are some people I have been struggling with lately and I am not sure what to do about it. But it isn't a new thing it just seems to annoy me more these days.  Maybe it is lack of sleep and a baby that cries more often then not. Although Luke is improving.

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