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This week

I wrote this on Sunday....

It has been quite the week.  I had a sibling in the hospital and there was lots of frustration around that.  Then I went to the doctor and she said everything looked on track for me to deliver near my due date.  Umm...I was sort of hoping that the baby would come sooner then that I am pretty sure that he will. But who really knows.  I have never made it to my actual due date so maybe to average things out this kids will come a few weeks late.

Everybody has thoughts on when I can or can not deliver.  The biggest thing is to make it through the work week and then I will feel better about having this baby.  Then somebody thought I was being induced this week.  Not sure where exactly that came from but then she questioned why I was still working if I was having a baby next week.  Because the plan is to work until I deliver.  12 weeks goes way too fast I don't want to spend one minute taking time off if I am not able to spend that time with my baby. 

Thanks to an amazing generous friend we now have a car seat.

My parents are taking the kids to the cabin tomorrow.  I guess I need to pack them.  They will be home Friday and then my parents will be gone Saturday-Saturday.  My mom said I can't have the baby while they are in Montana.  Actually I can.  :)


I worked at the hospital Sunday.  I will probably start picking up shifts there again in October. I am going to miss it.  I really like the hospital.  

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