I have been putting something off since August. I decided since I was in a hotel room with no distractions I would get it done. Turns out it did not save on my flash drive even though I checked it before leaving my office. Now I am so frustrated I was so close to being done. I can do some of it but I am going to wait until Lee leaves on Tuesday to get it done. Not how I planned things. Maybe this weekend I will get it done. There are just so many distractions at home. I still got some stuff that I had been putting off done. Which is good. Since putting things off just doesn't not help them get completed.
I sometimes wonder where to draw the line in this whole blogging thing. I could make us look like the "perfect" family or I could deal with all of our disappointment and make everybody think that we quite possible have the worse life ever. Or maybe there is a middle ground somewhere that I have yet to find in this blog. Today was a rough day. Don't get me wrong I am so excited that everybody around me is having babies. But for some reason today I was caught up in the losses all over again. I am wondering when it stops. Maybe it never does. Maybe it will be a life time of wondering what if I would have gone full term. Several people have asked when (or if) we are going to have another baby. I am not sure. Sometimes that answer is yes and sometimes it is no. But one thing is for certain it isn't right now. Really I don't need to have a ton of kids to fill some void. I love my two kids and if that is all ...
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