Lee and I have an ongoing issue with a family member. Every time that we get together then something happens that just makes me want to smack them. After a conversation with another family member last night I was glad to know I was not the only one struggling with this person. I think as long as we adore their spouse and kids then we will make them a part of get togethers but I think those may be more and more limited. I wish I could go into detail but that is for another time or maybe not at all.
I sometimes wonder where to draw the line in this whole blogging thing. I could make us look like the "perfect" family or I could deal with all of our disappointment and make everybody think that we quite possible have the worse life ever. Or maybe there is a middle ground somewhere that I have yet to find in this blog. Today was a rough day. Don't get me wrong I am so excited that everybody around me is having babies. But for some reason today I was caught up in the losses all over again. I am wondering when it stops. Maybe it never does. Maybe it will be a life time of wondering what if I would have gone full term. Several people have asked when (or if) we are going to have another baby. I am not sure. Sometimes that answer is yes and sometimes it is no. But one thing is for certain it isn't right now. Really I don't need to have a ton of kids to fill some void. I love my two kids and if that is all ...
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