Not sure why but I am going to write out my story. Well this is my blog and I can.
Graduation went well and I was so spoiled by family. After the ceremony we went out to eat at what point my older sister asked my point blank if I was pregnant. We were less then 48 hours from making the announcement so I decided not to lie and I told her that I was around ten weeks. Sunday was Mother's Day and we said good bye to Lee just like we do every Sunday night.
I had my concerns regarding the ultra sound on Monday but after two miscarriages it all seemed normal to be concerned. I met with my doctor first and we discussed my concerns. The doctor measured me and said I was measuring around 10 weeks and that the internal exam looked good. Then I had the ultra sound. I could tell the baby was measuring eight weeks and one day but I figured that it was because my calculations were off. The tech said there was no heart beat and I fell to pieces. I could not believe this was happening again. At that point the tech went to get the doctor. The doctor was amazing and was compassionate. I asked why does this keep happening and of course she had no answers. She offered three different options. One was a d&c and they could test the baby for defects and maybe that would give some answers, option two was medication to induce a miscarriage and option three was allow the miscarriage to happen naturally. Because Lee wasn't home I picked seeing if this would happen on its' own. If it didn't I would take the meds on Thursday night when Lee was back.
I got home and called Lee. He asked if I needed him to come home. No I didn't need him. He called back a few minutes later to say that he was coming home and would see me in six hours. Since Lee was coming home I called the doctor and asked for the medication. The thought of a dead fetus inside me was more then I could handle and did not want to spend the next several days waiting for something bad to happen.
Monday night I took the meds and it has to go down as the worst night of my life. I was so light headed I could not sit up and the cramps were horrible. By the time I woke up on Tuesday I was feeling better although tired and really sore. But I am so glad I took the meds. It is now over with and we can move on.
Today I went to work. I got there late and left early. Tomorrow I am off and Friday I will be working another short day because of school.
Lee and I decided a long time ago that if this pregnancy ended badly our family would be complete with our two kids This is my third miscarriage in 2 years well just over. Also it took nearly a year to get pregnant this time. Not what we planned but it is just how it goes. The good news is we are going to Hawaii in October. :)
I am so at peace with everything that is going on. It is hard to explain but maybe seeing the baby gives me some sort of closure. I am not sure.
Graduation went well and I was so spoiled by family. After the ceremony we went out to eat at what point my older sister asked my point blank if I was pregnant. We were less then 48 hours from making the announcement so I decided not to lie and I told her that I was around ten weeks. Sunday was Mother's Day and we said good bye to Lee just like we do every Sunday night.
I had my concerns regarding the ultra sound on Monday but after two miscarriages it all seemed normal to be concerned. I met with my doctor first and we discussed my concerns. The doctor measured me and said I was measuring around 10 weeks and that the internal exam looked good. Then I had the ultra sound. I could tell the baby was measuring eight weeks and one day but I figured that it was because my calculations were off. The tech said there was no heart beat and I fell to pieces. I could not believe this was happening again. At that point the tech went to get the doctor. The doctor was amazing and was compassionate. I asked why does this keep happening and of course she had no answers. She offered three different options. One was a d&c and they could test the baby for defects and maybe that would give some answers, option two was medication to induce a miscarriage and option three was allow the miscarriage to happen naturally. Because Lee wasn't home I picked seeing if this would happen on its' own. If it didn't I would take the meds on Thursday night when Lee was back.
I got home and called Lee. He asked if I needed him to come home. No I didn't need him. He called back a few minutes later to say that he was coming home and would see me in six hours. Since Lee was coming home I called the doctor and asked for the medication. The thought of a dead fetus inside me was more then I could handle and did not want to spend the next several days waiting for something bad to happen.
Monday night I took the meds and it has to go down as the worst night of my life. I was so light headed I could not sit up and the cramps were horrible. By the time I woke up on Tuesday I was feeling better although tired and really sore. But I am so glad I took the meds. It is now over with and we can move on.
Today I went to work. I got there late and left early. Tomorrow I am off and Friday I will be working another short day because of school.
Lee and I decided a long time ago that if this pregnancy ended badly our family would be complete with our two kids This is my third miscarriage in 2 years well just over. Also it took nearly a year to get pregnant this time. Not what we planned but it is just how it goes. The good news is we are going to Hawaii in October. :)
I am so at peace with everything that is going on. It is hard to explain but maybe seeing the baby gives me some sort of closure. I am not sure.
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