This is my rant/complaint for the day. When somebody tells you they are done having children or that they are postponing children for whatever reason it should not become a debate. The reasons I gave are our reasons and you can have a million kids if that is what you want. I am quite content with the two I have. If we have more great if not then that is great was well. I felt as though I have to constantly defend why we have done what we have done when in fact it is nobody's business.
I sometimes wonder where to draw the line in this whole blogging thing. I could make us look like the "perfect" family or I could deal with all of our disappointment and make everybody think that we quite possible have the worse life ever. Or maybe there is a middle ground somewhere that I have yet to find in this blog. Today was a rough day. Don't get me wrong I am so excited that everybody around me is having babies. But for some reason today I was caught up in the losses all over again. I am wondering when it stops. Maybe it never does. Maybe it will be a life time of wondering what if I would have gone full term. Several people have asked when (or if) we are going to have another baby. I am not sure. Sometimes that answer is yes and sometimes it is no. But one thing is for certain it isn't right now. Really I don't need to have a ton of kids to fill some void. I love my two kids and if that is all ...
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