I had this whole thing written but decided now was not the time. Anyway, Lee left and I have so much to do before he comes back. Such as not lose my sanity. I am watching the news as they announce that Bin Laden is DEAD!!! I am not sure how to react. Wishing Lee was here. Instead Jake is watching the news with me. He is a good second option. He was born after 9-11. Crazy! I am waiting for our president to speak. I will post more later.
I sometimes wonder where to draw the line in this whole blogging thing. I could make us look like the "perfect" family or I could deal with all of our disappointment and make everybody think that we quite possible have the worse life ever. Or maybe there is a middle ground somewhere that I have yet to find in this blog. Today was a rough day. Don't get me wrong I am so excited that everybody around me is having babies. But for some reason today I was caught up in the losses all over again. I am wondering when it stops. Maybe it never does. Maybe it will be a life time of wondering what if I would have gone full term. Several people have asked when (or if) we are going to have another baby. I am not sure. Sometimes that answer is yes and sometimes it is no. But one thing is for certain it isn't right now. Really I don't need to have a ton of kids to fill some void. I love my two kids and if that is all ...
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