Has it really been two months since I posted anything??? Okay I have an excuse I have lots of them but this post isn't about that. Today is my 10th wedding anniversary. It is amazing we survived this long. We had a bumpy start. Somebody told me that they felt that us losing our marriage license on our wedding day was a sign that we should have never been married. But that is for a whole different discussion. We have been through a lot in ten years. Two college graduations (almost three), losing a parent a cousin, a grandparent and an uncle, we gained a parent and two kids, two miscarriages, buying one house, countless jobs and countless cars. Lots and lots of good times. There have been several trips to the beach, one to Hawaii, lots of trips up North.
I sometimes wonder where to draw the line in this whole blogging thing. I could make us look like the "perfect" family or I could deal with all of our disappointment and make everybody think that we quite possible have the worse life ever. Or maybe there is a middle ground somewhere that I have yet to find in this blog. Today was a rough day. Don't get me wrong I am so excited that everybody around me is having babies. But for some reason today I was caught up in the losses all over again. I am wondering when it stops. Maybe it never does. Maybe it will be a life time of wondering what if I would have gone full term. Several people have asked when (or if) we are going to have another baby. I am not sure. Sometimes that answer is yes and sometimes it is no. But one thing is for certain it isn't right now. Really I don't need to have a ton of kids to fill some void. I love my two kids and if that is all ...
Happy Anniversary guys! WOW 10 years, that's a whole decade! You have a lot to be proud of. Congratulations! Maybe losing your marriage license was your good luck charm. ;)
ReplyDelete