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SLC and Deep Thoughts

Lee and I just had two great kid free days in Salt Lake City.  Pretty much nothing went as planned but such is life.  We did get to see the new Draper temple with all the huge expensive homes all around it.  I also got to see my first college room mate who had just given birth to the cutest little baby.  He was so peaceful.  I love newborns when I am not the one getting up with them every two hours.  Which brings me to my deep thoughts.

If life would have gone as planned I would be six weeks from my due date right about now.  We would know the gender of the baby and I would be making plans on where the baby would sleep and which of my children would be sharing a room in the next six months or so.  Sometimes I get bitter but sometimes I think that my life is totally coming together and for what ever reason that baby just wasn't ready for us yet.  Usually I think it is us that wasn't ready for the baby.  I have the hardest time with people who already have at least two kids and are having more.  People who are having their first I get very excited and think only happy thoughts. 

I am so disappointed our camera battery died so we never got any pictures of our weekend. 

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