The Six of Us

Our babysitter quit today.  She blamed me.  She said my boys by saying they were difficult and hard to handle and delayed in several areas.  According to her my schedule is difficult to keep track of.  Pretty much all the horrible things you could say to a mom.    I always asked before I picked up a shift. Now we don't have care on Monday but  I think we have figured it out.  (mostly).  The truth is Monday  was the third day she forgot Andrew at the bus stop. She wasn't the one who told me Andrew was.   I was angry and decided to take a few days to process before I confronted her about it.  In those few days I started looking for daycare on some websites.  She said somebody told her I was looking and she became upset.  I wanted to give her notice.  But, it is unlikely that will happen.  My intent was never to hurt her, my intent was to find the best care for my child.  We ...

I have some goals for the this year.  They are pretty similar to last years.  I didn't reach all of them last year but I was more mindful and I accomplished some of them.  Not sure what 2018 will bring us.  Pretty sure it will bring us a teenager.  :0!!!! At the end of the year I hope to be more confident with my decisions.  I hope that I will be more secure in life, financially, emotionally and spiritually. I wasn't going to post them but I thought this would be a good way to keep track. 2018 Goals 1) 52 Date nights January 5-Dinner and Movie (at home) 2) Lose 36  Pounds 3) Read 24 books (12 Fiction 12 non) January-The Art of Housekeeping NF 4) Sew 12 Projects 5) Pay off $24,000  in debt 6) Iron 96 Pieces for Days Of Girls 7) 12 New Recipes (3 Instant Pot, 3 Freezer, 3 Crock Pot and 3 Desserts) 8) Declutter 52 Bags of stuff January 6-Three Bags to IYR 9) 12 Home Improvement Projects 10) Raise Credit Score 48 points 11)...

Here is the 2017 story that you won't get on facebook or the Christmas letter.  2017 totally rocked me to my core. Mormonism is still a hard thing for me.  If people want to know what I believe I will gladly tell them but nobody ever asks and I never volunteer. Raising preteens can be tough.  Raising a three year old who struggles with people is overwhelming. I spend much of the year wondering if I am doing it all right. News flash I am not. People died, my heart was broken for those left behind.  Relationships came to a breaking point and I am not sure if they will ever go back together. Marriage can be so hard.  Our marriage has been pulled and pushed to the brink of breaking. But I am more confident and more at peace then I have been in a while.  I know I am on the right path for me at the moment. We have always had enough for our needs and some of our wants.  We were able to buy a new van that I have wanted for a while.  We...

We have a child who happens to be the oldest.  Who is a know it all and bossy and stubborn and emotional.  He hates losing and hates going last.  He is always right.  Don't get me wrong he is a pretty amazing kid but just like everybody else he has his weaknesses.  The last three days I have seen only a little bit of that side of my child.  He has been compassionate and kind.  He has been respectful.  He has done his chores.  He hasn't talked back.  These are the days I love.  When the kids all get along (mostly).  Where we have no where to be.  Where I can spend all day home with the kids.  It was fantastic.  We played board games and we played in the snow.  We played more board games and Legos.  We read books. We just breathed and the only thing missing was Lee.  I had the expectation that today would be difficult.  The day after Christmas often is for children in general and some...

Today was nearly perfect.  Words can't express the overwhelmingly peace I feel right now.  The kids  were great.  The morning we opened gifts and then headed to my mom's.  Dinner was great we exchanged some gifts and played a silly game.  My sister and family were missing from the family gathering and their presence was missed.  We then came home and kids played with their new gifts while Lee and I took a short nap 😴. We ended the night with a new game sent by Lees sister's family. I know so many people are suffering emotionally and physically.  It is hard to watch but for this moment live is fabulous.  Come what may. Tomorrow the magic ends and real live starts  again both Lee and I work and there is cleaning and cooking to do.

What a busy week coming up.  We have something every single night.  I work tomorrow until 11:00.  Tuesday is the Christmas band concert Wednesday is scouts and Lee is probably working late Thursday is an orchestra concert Friday I work and a Christmas party at a friends home without the kids Saturday is a basket ball clinic for Jake and Victoria's 5k and my work party (kids invited) Christmas is finally coming together and I think we are almost done shopping for the kids.  We bought for Lee's family and I still need to shop for my family.  Plus I still need to complete Christmas cards.  I ran out of stamps so only a few went out.  Not sure I am going to do them next year.  So much work and I don't love doing them the way I use to.  But I do like updating people on our lives.  There are moments where I am becoming really stressed and there are moments where I am loving life. Last night we went to "A night in Bethlehem"...

I am excited to turn 40.  I am excited to be done having kids and to be in a place where I can start giving back to the community.  For the last year or so I felt that I need to start getting into the community and start volunteering.  So I have been searching several websites to find the right place where I can help with out leaving my house.  So several weeks ago I found an agency that I have wanted to be involved with for a long time but, where they need help wasn't something I felt I could do.  A few weeks ago I found that they were looking for somebody to wash, dry and iron and that is something I can do from home. The agency is Days for Girls and it is something that I can really support. Then tonight I was once again looking while I was at work and found that a national crisis text line who was looking for volunteers to answer texts two hours a week from persons in crisis.  Once again something I can do from home after the kids are in bed...