The Six of Us

I am beyond proud of my kids.  This year has been a story of new and old.  A story of growing and expanding ourselves.  Lets start with me:  I joined MOPS.  Lee harasses me a lot about it but it has been so good for me.  I was forced to step out side (way outside) my comfort zone and it was good for me.  Still can't believe that I joined the leadership team for next year.    I trained for a half marathon which was also good for me.   I got a new job.  An amazing new job that despite the fact we have to juggle evenings more often then I would like it has been great. I am realizing more and more that you can be a part of something with out buying in 100%.  Jake:  He made it through the school year with out a visit to the principal's office for the first time ever.  He made high honor roll 3 out of 4 quarters. The third quarter he "only" made honor roll. He learned to work hard at school....

Today we did some major cleaning on the garage.  Trash can is full and back of the van is full of stuff for the youth ranch.  My neck hurts and my shoulders hurt and I am good tired. Came across a collection of letters I had been saving.  Came across one Dad wrote me when I was at girl's camp one year.  Started to cry and I could even read it.  Lots of cards from my mom.  When I lived out of state she sent me a card once a week usually more.   I am grateful to start seeing some major progress on the house.  I have been decluttering the house although much slower then garage in someways.  Nine more school days.  Ready to slow down and breathe.  Last regular season Lacrosse game on Tuesday I will miss it due to work.  Manage to work out my schedule so I could attend every single other game despite the fact I am scheduled every other Tuesday.  Debating working Memorial Day.  I feel like we could use the extr...

1). Lacrosse is my favorite sport to watch 2). I can't wait for the kids to be out for summer 3). Victoria has become such an amazing dancer I  so excited for the recital 4). My favorite thing about Jake is how affectionate he is 5). I love that Lee is sharing our love of books with the big kids 6). I think I  going to sign the kids up for a Vacation Bible School 7) Big kids are planning on doing their first Triathlon this summer 8) I think I  going to have to get a full time job just to pay for food the way the kids eat these days.  :) 9) Rain storm was nice tonight despite the fact hours later I am still not warm 10). I am still struggling with a few relationships  11) I try not to be but I  still bitter about Lukes accident  12). I am considering giving up my PRN job  13) I truely love hanging out with my kids theyare really amazing people 14) I also really love just hanging out with Lee he is a pretty great...

Sort of anyway,  I found this website that is doing free college courses.  I started my first one this week.  It has been a great class so far and I am hoping to complete about one a month.  I feel like I have gone of let my mind turn to mush and I want to start working on gaining more knowledge.  I am hoping at some point I can talk Lee into letting me go back and get my drug endorsement. I think I have the summer planned mostly anyway.  Kids only have less then three weeks left of school.  The first week they are doing a science camp in the morning.  The second week we will doing our reutine and the following week we will be in Utah for a family reunion.  Our plan of going up to my mom's cabin the first week of June doesn't look like it will happen although we may go the second week of June.  So next school year I may have gotten in way over my head...I agreed to be the service leader for my MOPS group and the v...

So I was having a conversation with somebody about something that was really hard for me and they made me out to be the bad guy.  When I explained their perspective was off they came back with a whole different thing about the story they didn't like while criticizing me and telling me I need to take some responsibility.  This isn't my fault yet somehow I am dealing with the consequences.  Those who are my closest friends know the details and have been supportive.  Nobody else has even bothered to ask thereby assuming I am at fault.  It is overwhelming and sad when you realize people are making assumptions that aren't based in fact just based on their idea of what happened. I should know better this isn't the first time somebody has assumed something about me that wasn't true. But this time it seemed to hurt worse. 

One of my friends text me everything happens for a reason.  I so disagree.  Usually I can find some reason but there is no reason why my little Duke should have been pined under his grandmother's car.  I am still struggling with it.  I am not the only one.  He still won't put any real weight on his right foot.  Today was the first day with out meds. Scabs are falling off , right foot is still missing half the skin.    I had a revelation about what happened that night I feel like I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that Dukes grandparents on the other side were there.  I see it in my mind so vividly how they intervened.  It is crazy.  It isn't just something I made up in my mind but it is like I was there watching it happen. It has been a tough week emotionally but somehow life goes on.  We contacted our insurance who will be taking care of the medical portion of the bills. So glad I no longer have to worry about that.  We ...

1) Got the kids to the bus on time 2) Went back to bed 3) Felt guilty 4) Did two batches of wash 5) Ate Healthy Breakfast 6) Cleaned the walls in the kitchen 7) Texted Lee 100 (approximently) times about the car 8) Called the bank 9) Attempted to make the house payment 10) Text my SIL 11) Took the boys to the park to almost two hours 12) Helped Jake with homework 13) Picked up Victoria 14) Cleaned the stove and inside of oven 15) Made dinner 16) Swept the floor 17) Searched for jobs for Lee 18) Worked five hours it ended up being six 19) Ate unhealthy Lunch 20) Talked to Adult Protection 21) Cried about leaving the kids 22) Text my BFF 23) Talked to the service coordinator regarding Luke