The Six of Us

We made it home at two in the morning this morning. I loved Seattle I so miss my sister in law and my BFF.  Jake is still not 100% but hopefully will be better after a good night sleep.  We has such a great time with friends and family.  Lee is applying for a job and I may get my wish to spend more time with my Seattle family and friends.  It is official.  Lee found out this morning that he will be graduating on May 15th.  I am so excited.  More motivation for me to graduate.  The plan is still for May 2011.  I was going to try and push for December but I don't think that will happen.  Actually I am pretty sure of it.  With more furloughs coming there will be more time to get the internship done.  Good and bad.  Bad because we need the money.  Good because I wasn't sure how I was going to work full time and do an internship 20 hours a week.  The department has been asked to cut 7% before the end of the fiscal y...

So at this moment in time I am sitting in my sister in law's apartment and I am loving it.  I spent the day shopping with my oldest and dearest friend.  We had dinner with Kimberly and Bryan at this Asian shopping center.  It was good not great but good.  Last night we stayed the night in Tri-Cities and we to dinner with some friends.  It was such a good time.  We laughed and laughed.  We were those loud people in the restaurant that you don't want to sit by.   Lee and Chris stayed up late playing games and Lee has been such trooper today even with the lack of sleep.  Tomorrow we head head home.  Not sure where we will stay tomorrow night. So on to the sick kid part.  Jake was complaining of a head ache when he was in my mom's car.  A headache only means one thing when it comes to Jake.  It means he is going to throw up and he did even before he made it to my parents house and before we made it out of Caldwell....

I sometimes wonder where to draw the line in this whole blogging thing.  I could make us look like the "perfect" family or I could deal with all of our disappointment and make everybody think that we quite possible have the worse life ever.  Or maybe there is a middle ground somewhere that I have yet to find in this blog.  Today was a rough day.  Don't get me wrong I am so excited that everybody around me is having babies.  But for some reason today I was caught up in the losses all over again.  I am wondering when it stops.  Maybe it never does.  Maybe it will be a life time of wondering what if I would have gone full term.  Several people have asked when (or if) we are going to have another baby.  I am not sure.  Sometimes that answer is yes and sometimes it is no.  But one thing is for certain it isn't right now.  Really I don't need to have a ton of kids to fill some void.  I love my two kids and if that is all ...

I am so tired of hearing that CPS workers want children in foster care because they get more money.  That is so funny because I just took a  5% cut in pay.  Really my whole job is not to make your life a living hell.  It is to protect children.  And we usually do a damn good job.  We make mistakes.  If you would like to do my job then go get a social work degree and come do it.  Until that time stop saying that we are ruining lives.  Nope we don't, the meth, the sexual abuse and physical abuse do that.  Sure we take children away from their parents but there are so many checks and balances that children who don't belong in foster care don't stay there.  More often then not judges allow them to go home only for CPS to be back out there in six months dealing with a far worse situation.  I had a co-worker tell me that it takes an act of God to get children in foster care and that is usually true.  I am sure that everybody h...

Jake turned five on the 20th.  I so vividly remember the day he was born.  We love having him as part of our family.  He is so full of energy and life.  He loves to run and climb and he loves video games. Here are some pics of all the fun.  The one of us playing cards and the three colored cake are from his actual birthday which was spent at home with just the four of us.  

I have decided to list my 2010 goals on here.  Not sure if it will motivate me more or not.  It is becoming more and more clear to me that we have way too much stuff in our lives.  So in a nut shell I am going to get rid of debt, rid of stuff and rid of some excess weight. So at the end of 2010 I will be free of all debt except for student loans and mortgage , free of 30 pounds and free of all the clutter in my house. I know that won't be easy but I figure if I take it one day at a time it will be manageable.  I believe by doing this I will be healthier and happier. Lee will be graduating this year and we will be celebrating our tenth wedding anniversary.  I am so excited about where this year will take us.  

Here is the short version: one heart attack, one cousin losing a battle to cancer, two miscarriages, one dead cat, two great vacations, one motorcycle trip,  BSU and NNU, two great kids, one job I love (usually), a roof over our heads, food on the table, good friends and two amazing families.  These are just the highlights. It all turned out.  I am glad it is over and I am looking forward to 2010 with optimism and cautiousness.